253/365: Recovery Day 5 – at home

This was a difficult day.   Even though I was at home, I wasn’t feeling well with my condition.  I was having problems breathing and I had a fever which kept giving me the chills and sweats all day long.  I couldn’t get comfortable as I tried to sleep and I was feeling depressed…

All my whys came back and I started grieving for Pacey.  I felt like it wasn’t fair and I wanted answers.. i wanted to know why this was happening to me. what did I do to deserve how i was feeling and all the life changes which have to now occur.