Hope is Alive
April 16th, 2009
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Storm Season 2009
March 22nd, 2009
As odd as it may sound I’m eagerly excited for storm season 2009 to begin. I’m am an avid storm watcher, mini storm chaser and I am more then ready for the excitement or the season to begin. I am ready for the rain to pour away the dryness of winter, the thunder and lightening to fill the sky with energy and enthusiasm and the tornadoes to bring their furry and glory.
Angry at this Country
February 19th, 2009
Recently President Obama announced a Mortgage Bailout program for people who are unable to pay their Mortgage or who have not been paying their mortgage. This makes me very angry.
Should I stop paying my mortgage or buy a bigger house that I cannot afford and let the government BAIL me out: NO!
Why? Because I know the value of money and I spend WITHIN my MEANS!
Happened to SELF RESPONSIBILITY?
I’M ANGRY. I was responsible, payed my mortgage on time, spent my money wisely, did NOT SPEND in EXCESS. If you cannot afford it, Don’t buy it. Have these people not ever heard of a BUDGET!
Now, I and my children have to pay for these IDIOTs whom decided to get the BIG HOUSE they couldn’t afford, the 4CARS, the mobile phones they really didn’t need, the 50 INCH High Definition TV with High Definition FULL Cable package plus DVR, ETC
LIVING IN EXCESS…. killed this country
Moral of this Rant: If you cannot afford it – DON’T BUY IT!
Dear Brother
January 16th, 2009
Oh Brother
Oh Brother I can believe its true
Four years ago life was changed forever
Our lives kept moving,
But yours suddently stopped on Earth.
I know you watch from up above
Your little boy knows Heaven in not far
He loves to glance up at the midnight sky
And say “my daddy is up their with God by his side”…
This weekend he had the powers of a superhero
We were all so proud
Fighting the villains, the bad guys and our tears from inside
I’m sure you were watching, did you see his smile?
I love you and miss you this will always be true
A bittersweet weekend one of joyous life, yet blues
Never forgetting the bond we shared
Thank you for the gift of your son you have shared.
Angels on the Moon
January 14th, 2009
Do you dream, that the world will know your name?
So tell me your name
And do you care, about all the little things or anything at all?
I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel
I wanna sunburn, just to know that I’m alive
To know I’m alive
So tell me your name
And do you care, about all the little things or anything at all?
I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel
I wanna sunburn, just to know that I’m alive
To know I’m alive
Don’t tell me if I’m dying, ’cause I don’t wanna know
If I can’t see the sun, maybe I should go
Don’t wake me ’cause I’m dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon
Do you believe, in the day that you were born?
Tell me, do you believe?
And do you know, that everyday’s the first of the rest of your life?
Don’t tell me if I’m dying, ’cause I don’t wanna know
If I can’t see the sun, maybe I should go
Don’t wake me ’cause I’m dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon
This is to one last day in the shadows
And to know a brother’s love
This is to New York City angels
And the rivers of our blood
This is to all of us, to all of us
So don’t tell me if I’m dying, ’cause I don’t wanna know
If I can’t see the sun, maybe I should go
Don’t wake me cause I’m dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon
Yeah, you can tell me all your thoughts
About the stars that fill polluted skies
And show me where you run to
When no one’s left to take your side
But don’t tell me where the road ends
‘Cause I just don’t wanna know,
No I don’t wanna know
Don’t tell me if I’m dying
Don’t tell me if I’m dying
Don’t tell me if I’m dying
what if
January 7th, 2009
…you knew 9 days from now you would die?
You would take your last breath, see your last sunrise and sunset, taste your last sip of coffee, glance at your last tree, observe your last leaf blowing in the wind, feel your last hug on earth, give your loved one a last kiss…
…what would you do different?
2009 Projects
January 6th, 2009
Gwenn and I have 3 projects lined up for the first month of 2009. So far it looks like they will all get accomplished. I am so excited! It has taken a while for them to get started, but I must say it is a great start to 2009.
- Paint the Hallway to the bedrooms - [DONE]
- Paint the Dinning room [goodbye ugly wallpaper from when we moved in] – [DONE]
- Wood flooring for the dinning room, living room and hallway. – [DONE]
[updated 01.28.2009]
2008 Top 10
December 31st, 2008
- Dear Son’s Adoption is FINAL!!
- Family Family Family
- My New Car
- Gwenn’s Job is totally amazing
- GROWING in my faith
- New York Football Giants win the Superbowl
- Personal forgiveness
- Self discovery
- Letting Go
- Moving forward…
White Fences
October 2nd, 2008
People hide behind white fences
Running to the door with their smiling faces
Going inside to hide the pain
The pain that hides
Behind the white fences
And the smiling faces
People pass we all say ‘OK’
Politely going on with our routine day
Days turn to month, months to years
Only to turn into deep, dark tears
People are hiding behind white fences
Running to the door with their smiling faces
Turning inside to run and hide
As the pain burns inside.
words
September 24th, 2008
to feel is bliss
most of the time…
to feel is numbing
some of the time…
to understanding is explosive
all of the time!
to know the hole deep and dark
fingers scratching
legs lunging
arms thrusting, grabbing for hope.
Mind tricks,
A silly game,
Deceit at the finest levels,
Convinced otherwise no others could tell.
To be happy
To reach
Why, sometimes I ask why
As the pain, floods..
Can you tell, from up there?
Can you make Heaven from my hell?
Fix it from up There
After all you left us here
Took the easy way
And I will have to tell.
Instead I sit here
Mind tricks,
A silly game I tell
To be happy is what I sell
A smile and a blank stare.