Expectations:

• The act or state of expecting or looking forward to an event as about to happen.
• That which is expected or looked for.
• The prospect of the future; grounds upon which something excellent is expected to occur; prospect of anything good to come, esp. of property or rank.
• The value of any chance (as the prospect of prize or property) which depends upon some contingent event.

Expectancy:

• expectation or anticipation; the state of expecting something
• the state of being expected, or something expected

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I am currently reading “The Shack” by William Young, in this book it talks about living in a state of expenctancy in relationships verse pressing expectations on relationships which cause laws and rules to come into play.  I would much rather live my life going forward in a state of EXPECTANCY then with expectations, it seems much more free.

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Downs and Ups
Life Swings like a pendulum
On its own course of time
No rhyme or reason
Just worries going by

Life slows down
I take a deep breath
Step back
Relax…
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Realize
This is all I have
Prioritize and not snap
Love and not like
Engage and not check-out
Be and not just exist

I am a work in progress, my life is a work in progress.  Each day I figure out something new, each day I better myself, each day I am me.

I have to remember:

a great leader’s courage to fulfill his vision comes from passion, not position.

“I want to be in the light.”

“I want a heart for humanity.”

“I dare you to move.”

All quotes from amazing songs that inspire and make me wonder what am I truly doing on this Earth.

Put them together… I want to move into the light with a heart for humanity. Surely makes me think about my choices.

This morning on my drive into work, on my way out of Flower Mound, through the quiet neighborhoods and the green grass lawns there was a man jogging.  He was hot and sweaty and seemed as if he was overheating.  It was already 87 degrees outside and it was only 7:45 am.  I watched him approach a set of sprinklers of a house whom must be determined to keep their grass green and nourished.

The man was jogging on the sidewalk, this house had grass adjacent  to the sidewalk, but concealed by a fence so these set of sprinklers probably are not seen often from the house.  As the man slowed down to the sprinklers, appearing to overheat and in need of a drink, he bent down, cupped his hands and drink from the broken sprinkler.   He then took the water the washed it over his face and then continued jog.

As I pulled away, I realized even the broken have a purpose.  Who knows how long that sprinkler has been broken for, but today on this hot morning – that man needed a drink and who knows what would of happened had that sprinkler not been broken for him to have one.

The past few days I have been reconnecting with past friends from both my youth and young adulthood.  I’ve mentioned in previous posts that I am searching for my purpose and/or vision for 2009, I feel that going backwards a bit and remembering who I was and all the people who helped me to be the person I am today will allow me to focus on my future and where I am to go.

I am realizing with each person I find and each memory I feel how much each person can affect our lives in such a special manner.

Some of these individuals I haven’t been in contact with in over 15 years and yet at first glance I knew it was them and was drawn to know the rest of their story.

To each person whom has ever touched my life.  Thank you…